NotGoodEnough.

Ever felt not good enough?

Ever felt like you try so hard and nothing comes out of it?

Ever felt like you've been "trying" to please everyone but you don't succeed?

Ever felt like your parents are expecting the very best out of you and all you can give them is what you've got and what you've got isn't good enough or what they want?

Ever felt like you are giving them your best but to them its nothing?

Ever felt like you will never be the daughter that they've always wanted?

Ever felt like your parents deserve much better than yourself?

Ever felt like you will never be what they want you to be?

Ever felt like just giving up?

I have..and I guess all i can say is..Just Be Who YOU Want To Be And What YOU Want To Be. Don't let anyone control you. You are your own person.

So Be Free!

Future.

Have you ever thought about your future? Like what's going to happen. What if you planned it way ahead of time and when it's about to come you realize that it's not going to happen. Don't waste your breath on planning your future just let it come to you. Because if you do plan it you'll get crushed by the result. So make it worth it. I know I sure won't.

Time is going by really fast. I don't like it. I don't want to be separated from something i've been building all my life. My friends are like my life right now (<-- stupid i know) but to me it's not. Sure everyone on graduation day all say "OMG we have to keep in touch no matter what!" but does it happen? no! Everyone goes there separate ways.

I guess...right now...

I'm afraid...

to lose...

My Best Friend.

I'm trying..my awfulness.

I'm trying my best to be happy.

every time i am

it goes away just as fast as it comes.

its pointless.

why even try if you can't succeed.

the only thing I'm good for these days is..

FUCK! i don't even think I'm good for anything.

the only thing I'm good at is. nothing. Ok.

maybe something

which is sleep.

ha-ha

the only thing i look forward to.

besides one other thing.

Dork is me

NOT YOU!

(if you catch my drift)

saying something can be easy

only if you know its safe to say it

ughh

LIFE IS FULL OF CRAP!!!

i don't want to be here anymore

and thats the truth

everyone is full of it!

full of themselves!

its pathetic!

i just hate hate hate me!

i'm not good enough.

everyone deserves better than me

no one tells me other words.

they agree.

i know that as a fact.

i'm sounding selfish

maybe i am

i could care less right now.

unexpected.

:S

Every time we get into fights

you say things that aren't right

so do i

the only thing i say is sorry

but you say other things

things that i truly don't want to happen

things i think at times

i'm tired of thinking like that

i want to stop

but for some reason it's hard for me.

When You Left I lost A Part Of Me...

Telling someone something can be extremely hard if you don't know if telling them is the right thing to do. But how the heck do you know when and how or even if you should?...just one of lifes MANY confusions for a teenage i suppose.
LifeSucks!..but so what!
Deal with it!
Or atleast try...
Ok than just go through it..
Knowing you were lucky enough..
To preview hell before actually going to it. ha-ha.
(if thats what you plan on doing.)

Fallen

Fallen
Speachless
On the ground
No one see's
They ignore it
Steppin' all over me
I can't get up
Helpme?
Just listen
Than maybe
I'll get over it
And get up.

BehindTheShadow

I'm here, inside.

Shattered.

No one will listen.

Broken.

I so badly need to talk to you.

But when i try i don't know what to say.

Everything doesn't seem right.

Wrong, wrong, wrong.

why am i always wrong?

Fallen Behind.

Don't deserve to be beside.

I'm the fallower.

Never the leader.

But i don't mind.

I just want someone to notice.

To be there, to know.

Left behind in the shadow.

Desperatly wanting to be seen.

No one wants to know the truth.

Behind the shadow.

Well the truth is, Behind that shadow.

Is a girl with mixed emotions,

A sad face, And a broken heart.

She just wants to be seen is all.